Top work JudithG! Sounds like a proper adventure.
With my daughter out at her girlfriends and my wife out for the evening with a couple of her friends, I was at a loose end. As I'm on-call over the end of the month and with the weather being settled, for a change, I decided to head out for my bivvy. I decided I fancied seeing some bluebells and stopping for some coffee and cake, so initially considered headed to
Waresley & Gransden Woods, as the it's by far the best place locally to go and see a fantastic display, followed by a visit to the
Hot Numbers Roastery.
However, after a poor week of sleep and two and a half hours of ice skating in the morning, I was getting pretty tired as the evening approached. Then the usual anxieties kicked in,
I'm not fit enough,
it's too far,
I wont have enough food,
there's no water resupply,
I've not got the right clothing, etc, etc, etc... I was getting dangerously close to sacking it all in and sitting in front of the telly self medicating with some beer. Thankfully I decided to head towards Wicken Wild Camping (currently shut), as it's not too far from
Wicken Fen, which has an outside tap, then head for
The Breadline at Phoenix Bike Park.
Getting out the door was a relief, even if it was slightly chillier and blustery than anticipated. It was nice to find out that the trails had mostly dried out too, obviously some of the bad bits were still bad, but by and large they were much dryer than I was expecting, which was nice.
I took the Exped DownMat with me this time, so I wasn't cold during the night, like last month. The Thermarest quilt doesn't really play with the mat nicely though, so I do get the occasional cold spot, which is frustrating. According to Fitbit though, I had the best night sleep of the week, but a country mile, which was surprising, as it felt like I was lying there awake for all of it. While the eye mask is certainly working wonders for keeping everything dark, I might have to upgrade it to one with eye cups, so there's no pressure on the eyeballs, as that's not so nice.
I couldn't be arsed to get up, which is most unlike me on a bivvy, I'm so anxious not to be discovered, that I'm usually up and away super early. I rolled out of the tent around 08:00, which put me around two hours behind schedule, but as The Breadline wouldn't open until 09:00, this meant I didn't have to cycle around the houses for a bit. [mode rant=on]Does anyone else get absolutely

off when you ask for an Americano and they ask if you want milk in it...? IT'S A

BLACK COFFEE! If I wanted a white coffee I wouldn't be asking for a black coffee, would I... FFS![/mode]
Anyway, it was relatively nice to be out. The weather was good, loads of spring flowers to admire, birds signing in the trees and the smell of wild garlic, lovely. A couple of trails were a bit squishy and on one you could feel the bike sinking into the soft mud, but the general lack of liquid mud was nice.
Lack of riding eventually took its toll though and I started to struggle after about 75KM. I just kept plugging away, but the legs were just getting heavier and heavier and felt like they were on the brink of giving out. I knew how much further it was to the house, as I was getting closer to home and the mental calculations said I'd finish on 99KM, which would never do. So it was literally riding round the houses at the end till I knew I'd be over 100KM by the time I rolled up the driveway.
While it was nice to get out and go for a longer ride, the desire to get out and ride just doesn't seem to be there at the moment. I'm finishing this up after going for another ride this morning, but the normal joy of just riding my bike seems to have been replaced by a torrent of negativity. That and all the anxiety I've been suffering from before heading out the door is making me question what the point of it all is, BaM is supposed to be fun, not a chore to be suffered. Maybe the WRT will reignite the spark, but given the state of my legs, I fear I'm in for a weekend of pain and suffering.
https://www.strava.com/activities/11179843446
2024: 4 / 12
Total: 42
Streak: 4
There are theories at the bottom of my jargon.